Widen your search…

Widen your search…

You have what a lot of people can only dream of

But what you get, you don’t want

What you have, you are tired of

You want more

Is what you have enough?

Is it bad to keep wanting more?

Is it selfish?

Is it greedy?

You try to pick pieces of happiness from the dirt

You have been picking these pieces for a long time

You can barely boast of a hand full

It’s like when you pick a spec of happiness it comes with a huge clump of dirt

So you throw it all back

“There should be a bigger piece of happiness with little or no dirt attached” you think

So you keep searching the dirt pile

Still you find specs with the same large amounts of dirt

You want to scream

You can’t hold it in

Then comes the realization

You have happiness all around

But your focus is on finding it from the huge dirt dump in front of you

Widen your search maybe…

Write soon. xx

 

 

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“Danfo” Tales in the Big City

“Danfo” Tales in the Big City

“Oshod! Oshod! Iyanoworo Oshod!” (Yes the “I” in “Oshodi” is missing on purpose)

“Ikeja! Ikeja! Hold your one-fifty change Ikeja!”

“Ogudu Waso, Toll gate hundred naira, any bus stop ikeja one-fifty”

“Obalende – CMS!”

“Oya aunty e bo le

” E ba wa dress ni be ejoo”

“Lekki hundred naira!”

“Hol your change oh, I no get change”

I’m ashamed of how well I know these.. but honestly, I could go on.

My Danfo tales are endless and I’m sure I am not alone. I thought it’d be interesting to share some of my experiences.

Anytime I experience something odd or exciting on the bus I feel as though it was played out just for me. LoL

Sometimes I’m like “nahhhh this has to be prank, this can’t be happening”.

But then I’ve never heard anyone scream “punked!” after an unbelievable episode in a bus.

Anyway, like I said, my bus tales are endless so let’s begin.

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Running, Not Moving.

Running, Not Moving.

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I remember one day a couple of years ago; my friend and I were heading to the cinema to see a movie.

He was a couple of meters ahead of me as I had stopped to send a text.

He looked back and said “Hurry up, we are going to miss the movie”.

I proceeded to run.

After a few seconds running towards him, he burst out laughing saying “how do you do that?”.

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Pick a Date.

Pick a Date.

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“Pick a date then work backwards”.

My Boss says this all the time.

I work in a Unit in HR where we plan and deliver trainings. I never thought it would be hard. But as it is with everything involving logistics and many other people besides yourself, planning and delivering trainings is hard and annoying.

I digress.

Do you know why he always said to pick a date? It’s because psychologically if you set a date for something, you sort of do everything within your power to make sure you are ready for that date. Especially when it involves stakeholders other than yourself.

Why am I talking about this?

My Boss’ advice as annoying as it always is, is always super helpful.

It makes things happen.

Personally, I feel that without this advice, I would never have accomplished half the things I have accomplished while working with him.

Anyway this is not a write up about my Boss.

It’s about you and me. It’s about us and why we never get around to doing the things we really want to do.

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This can’t be it…

This can’t be it…

I want to be more than this

I know this isn’t it for me

But do I work hard enough to get the things I want?

To get to where I want to be?

I guess if I had to ask…

But sometimes I can’t help it

I’m not motivated

I wake up and I say, “today will be different”

And guess what?

It never is

It’s the same cycle

I wake in the morning and immediately my eyes pop open

I can’t wait till it it’s time for me to close them again

This can’t be it

This can’t be how I get to where I want to be

This can’t be how I live the life God has given me

But maybe it’s not so bad

Some days I smile

I smile a lot more than I thought I could

Some days I frown

I frown a lot

Frowning is my default state these days

Maybe it’s because I know I’m not “doing it right”

But wait, I still smile sometimes

I smile

When I’m happy, when I’m not

I smile because it means people leave you alone

When you smile people assume that you are happy, that you are okay.

And I guess that’s a good thing

It is the best look to have really

That’s a lie, I don’t really smile

People would testify

I’m a grump

This write up has too many angles

Let me be more coherent

*clears throat*

A good number of people are not where they want to be

Who do you take it out on?

Why are you unhappy?

Whose fault is it?

No one really

In fact it’s most likely yours

I know mine’s mine

It my fault I’m here

I could do so much more

I want to push myself

I want to be able to say I tried everything I could and it just didn’t work

But I can never say that if I never try

I always make excuses

I have excuses for everything

You know that thing called comfort zone

It sounds so safe

But it could very well be one of the most dangerous places you could find yourself or rather keep yourself

This post is too long and it’s still not very coherent

But I’m sure someone gets what I mean (I hope)

Write soon xx

It can be done, it shall be done

It can be done, it shall be done

Ohh! where do I start?

First off, it has been a minute. So much has happened in the last 45 days or so. I hope I do it justice with this post. Tbh I doubt I will, but you know, bear with me 🙂

Okay I have to write this because it’s stuck in my head – ‘the money turned me into a monster, the money turned my noodles into pasta, the money turned my tuna into lobster’ lol (if you know, you know).

Okay back to business.

Have you had an experience that made you question yourself? Questioning not just your ability to scale through but actually questioning your ability to be yourself through it. You’re probably wondering how something can question your ability to be you.

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