I was struggling to sleep last night so I began to think as usual
I knew someone who had put his all into a particular thing and things didn’t work out
He was distraught
He was feeling as though there was no point trying anymore
I don’t know how many other things he had tried before this particular thing
Or if that was the only thing he had ever really tried so hard to get
But I knew this particular let down had affected him severely
Suddenly an image came to my mind
“That’s the thing about pain, it demands to be felt” – stolen from The Fault in our Stars.
I wasn’t even thinking about the movie when this phrase popped in my mind a few hours ago.
But what is realer than this phrase?
We can hide our pain from others, pretend it’s not there just so people leave us alone
But we feel it.
We know it is.
Pain is real and it’s not just the kind gotten from a bite , or a bruise , or a beating , or an accident.
Pain comes in all sorts of forms.
Ohh! where do I start?
First off, it has been a minute. So much has happened in the last 45 days or so. I hope I do it justice with this post. Tbh I doubt I will, but you know, bear with me 🙂
Okay I have to write this because it’s stuck in my head – ‘the money turned me into a monster, the money turned my noodles into pasta, the money turned my tuna into lobster’ lol (if you know, you know).
Okay back to business.
Have you had an experience that made you question yourself? Questioning not just your ability to scale through but actually questioning your ability to be yourself through it. You’re probably wondering how something can question your ability to be you.