“That’s the thing about pain, it demands to be felt” – stolen from The Fault in our Stars.
“I love you.” My legend never failed to let me know.
“I love you” – my legend said to me when I had been good.
“I love you” – my legend said to me when I had been bad.
“I love you” – the last words my legend said to me.
When I think about this Legend I am stunned at how amazing one person could be.
How one person could be so tough yet so loving.
I remember your discipline. How there were certain things we couldn’t dare to try (and still can’t tbh) because we knew the consequences. How you made us tough. How you embarked one of life’s toughest journeys without ever complaining. How you fought through the pain, how you smiled through the pain. My legend was a fighter.
I remember your love. How you always put us before yourself. How you took all of our burdens and made it your own. How you made us feel safe. How you had an answer to everything. How you were still thinking of us even through the pain.
I didn’t understand what it meant to love a person but my legend taught me.
My legend made me who I am today. I remember the days of uncertainties my legend gave me something to believe in.
My legend was the definition of the ‘The love of a father’.
It is not how long you lived but how well you lived – I say my legend lived well. And not just for himself but for so many around him.
They call it “The Remembrance Day” but I don’t need a special day to remember you. Not a single day has gone by in the past 1825 days that I don’t think about you. You are a star in my heart that has never deemed. Even when our human senses told us you had been blacked out – you didn’t flicker. In my heart you continue to shine bright.
I have never really put “it” out there but today I thought I’d tell the world a little bit about my Legend.
Words cannot express how much I miss you.
Even after so long, whenever something great happens to me I want to pick up the phone and call you. Just to get that very special reaction you give that no one else can replicate. You are a star.
I miss you.
When I’m lost I wish you were there to tell me where to go. Sometimes I pray to dream about you just so I can have a conversation with you.
I miss you.
Somehow I’m not angry that you went away because I actually believe and I’m not just saying it, that you are in a far better place. I just miss you, that’s all.
When I think about you these days I envision you in a beautiful world with your only worry being that you miss us. But that’s okay we miss you too. And eventually we will have what we once had when the Lord permits.
The words above do not represent even a spec of the beauty that was and is my legend. But you know what they say – words are never enough.
So this is just a little something about my legend. A little something to say how much I miss my legend. A little something to say, quite frankly that the world deserves to know a bit about my legend.
Write soon! xx