In loving memory

In loving memory

Your memory is eternal

I have said this before

Not a day has gone by in the past 2,920 days that I have not thought about you

Your memory is eternal

How could it not be?

You were excellent

They spoke about love the other day at church

And all that resonated with me and this feeling of love was you

Your memory is eternal

How could it not be?

You were strong

I think about what a man should be and you are the first example that comes to my mind

Your memory is eternal

How could it not be?

You were love at it’s best.

I have never experienced such love on this earth as the one you showed me

Your memory is eternal

How could it not be?

You were smart

Any question I could think of, you had an answer to

Your memory is eternal

I never want to loose my memory of you

I pray to God I never will

I want to think of you everyday for the rest of my life

You are not a memory that should ever be lost

I miss you from the depths of my soul

It feels like a log

But I’m not sad

I can’t explain it

I am grateful

I am more grateful than I am sad

I am grateful to have had a love like yours in this cruel world

I miss you

Oh gosh, I miss you

Your memory is engraved in my heart

I love you

Oh gosh, I love you

Thank you

Thank you for everything

It’s 8 years later and I am honored to be your seed.

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Pain

Pain

“That’s the thing about pain, it demands to be felt” – stolen from The Fault in our Stars.

I wasn’t even thinking about the movie when this phrase popped in my mind a few hours ago.
But what is realer than this phrase?
We can hide our pain from others, pretend it’s not there just so people leave us alone
But we feel it.
It’s there.
We know it is.
Pain is real and it’s not just the kind gotten from a bite , or a bruise , or a beating , or an accident.
Pain comes in all sorts of forms.
Remembering a Legend

Remembering a Legend

“I love you.” My legend never failed to let me know.

“I love you” – my legend said to me when I had been good.

“I love you” – my legend said to me when I had been bad.

“I love you” – the last words my legend said to me.

When I think about this Legend I am stunned at how amazing one person could be.

How one person could be so tough yet so loving.

I remember your discipline. How there were certain things we couldn’t dare to try (and still can’t tbh) because we knew the consequences. How you made us tough. How you embarked one of life’s toughest journeys without ever complaining. How you  fought through the pain, how you smiled through the pain. My legend was a fighter.

I remember your love. How you always put us before yourself. How you took all of our burdens and made it your own. How you made us feel safe. How you had an answer to everything. How you were still thinking of us even through the pain.

I didn’t understand what it meant to love a person but my legend taught me.

My legend made me who I am today. I remember the days of uncertainties my legend gave me something to believe in.

My legend was the definition of the ‘The love of a father’.

It is not how long you lived but how well you lived – I say my legend lived well. And not just for himself but for so many around him.

They call it “The Remembrance Day” but I don’t need a special day to remember you. Not  a single day has gone by in the past 1825 days that I don’t think about you. You are a star in my heart that has never deemed. Even when our human senses told us you had been blacked out – you didn’t flicker. In my heart you continue to shine bright.

I have never really put “it” out there but today I thought I’d tell the world a little bit about my Legend.

Words cannot express how much I miss you.

Even after so long, whenever something great happens to me I want to pick up the phone and call you. Just to get that very special reaction you give that no one else can replicate. You are a star.

I miss you.

When I’m lost I wish you were there to tell me where to go. Sometimes I pray to dream about you just so I can have a conversation with you.

I miss you.

Somehow I’m not angry that you went away because I actually believe and I’m not just saying it, that you are in a far better place. I just miss you, that’s all.

When I think about you these days I envision you in a beautiful world with your only worry being that you miss us. But that’s okay we miss you too. And eventually we will have what we once had when the Lord permits.

The words above do not represent even a spec of the beauty that was and is my legend. But you know what they say – words are never enough.

So this is just a little something about my legend. A little something to say how much I miss my legend. A little something to say, quite frankly that the world deserves to know a bit about my legend.

Write soon! xx

 

A Decision to Love

A Decision to Love

Lately I’ve been fascinated about marriage (maybe I’m getting to that age – lol). But it has been really interesting gathering different people’s perspective on the issue of marriage.

Funny enough, marriage is made to look like a chore by a lot of people and you start to wonder why people still push towards it and even those people that complain vehemently about the woes of marriage are the major advocates for marriage.

What is so special about this institution of marriage that everyone (and their grandma) wants to fly into it?

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