Stuck…

Few feelings are worse than the feeling of being stuck in something you hate. I say this all the time.

Imagine waking up every day with an overwhelming feeling of fear and/or sadness because you know you are about to face another day stuck in an ocean when you would rather be out on dry land.

It’s a terrible feeling.

Okay so let me just say here that this piece is probably not going to make much sense when it’s done. I’m not sure, we’ll see. (btw I’m writing this after I’ve written like 4 paragraphs coz I’m realizing that I’m just rambling so I thought I’d give you guys a heads up). But read on its not that bad – maybe you’ll help me make some sense out of it.

I remember feeling stuck some time back. I would wake up very early in the morning with my first emotion of the day being fear, and I would spend those few hours before the sun came up just thinking bitterly about what I was going to face that day. It wasn’t the worst thing on earth – what I was going to face, in fact it wasn’t bad at all but I hated it and I was stuck in it and that was all I needed to feel so bitter every day.

I hear people say “I’m stuck” or “I feel stuck, I don’t know what to do” and I wonder is it possible to actually be stuck (you know what I mean – like if your leg isn’t literally caught in a trap or in quick sand or if you aren’t locked up somewhere). Are we ever really stuck or are we just scared to move?

What does being stuck even mean? When we say we are stuck, Is someone or something holding us against our will? Or is it the fear of an unknown future that keeps us bolted? Or is it just “impossible” to walk away from whatever situation we’re in?

I googled stuck. Here’s what I found (yeah I know you all can use google but I’m saving you the stress):

1. be fixed in a particular position or unable to move or be moved
2. be or become fixed or jammed as a result of an obstruction
3. be unable to progress with a task or find the answer or solution to something.
4. remain in a static condition; fail to progress
5. be or remain in a specified place or situation, typically one perceived as tedious or unpleasant.
6. be at a loss for or in need of.
7. be unable to get rid of or escape from.

Definitions 5 & 7 – I think those represent my feelings more closely. Maybe your definition(s) is/are different. But they all reflect being “stuck” in a similar light – staying put when you don’t want to.

It’s interesting to think about.

People use stuck to describe different situations – stuck in traffic, stuck in a bad relationship, stuck at a bad job, stuck in a city, stuck in a friendship, stuck with the wrong person… the list goes on (maybe not too long a list).

I feel stuck sometimes and then I wonder if I’m actually stuck or if I’m just too lazy to release myself. Yeah, that’s another thing – are we just too lazy to get unstuck?

The time I described earlier when I was bitter; I didn’t leave that situation on my own rather, I waited for something to take me out of it. Looking back at it now, I feel like I could have left if I wanted to. I know it’s not that way for everyone and I’m sure some people can’t  do much about their situation. But I know that being stuck isn’t a permanent predicament.

Think about it, if your window is stuck (can’t close or won’t open), do you just leave it? Probably not, we try our best – tug, pull, shake, put some grease on it, and in the worst case, we call a repair guy. But we always find a way to get it to move.

Maybe that’s the trick – don’t stop trying. Don’t resign to the fact that you’re stuck, fight your way out. I know it’s a lot easier said than done but it makes sense. It’s an annoying feeling trying to move something and it’s not bulging and it’s even worse trying to move yourself when you can’t. But we have to fight for our release. Fight till we aren’t stuck anymore.

And for those of us who may have realized that we are probably just too lazy to move, we need to move!

Anyway, what am I trying to get out of all these? I think we have the power to move when we feel stuck – we must try everything.

Ugh, I’m stuck I don’t know what else to write 🙂

Write soon! xx